It is so bizarre on how September is already here. The streets, the busses and the tube are crowded with high school kids and college students. An today on my way to work, on the tube it hit me. When looking at all those 15 year olds, or 16 or whatever age you think of I did feel a bit nostalgic. Most of them have their plans and dreams for the future and ideas on how it would turn out. And I was like that as well. I feel like we all were like that at some point, or if you belong to the group mentioned above you strive to make those dreams come true and you think of your future and career choices a bit with head in the clouds, thought pink shades, seeing everything in rather positive light. And I get that. I do. Heck, I would give pretty big money to get that back. That bit naive outlook on life. Looking at my younger sister and in a way seeing my younger self in her. That hope for the future with bit of expectations and mix of fright. When you’re in school you are contently told that you have to go to university, or you have to have a good career and make good money, that success is actually the only opinion. Since very young age kids are pressured to be the best, and not even be the best selves but the best in everything, which is impossible. And that comes from a high achiever! When I was a teen (I sounds so old now omg) I was thought to work at the job that I enjoy and feel passionate about. Now that I’m an adult I am being told to work at the job that pays well.
And I totally understand that way of thinking, at the end of the day we all need roof under heads, coffee in our mugs and fast internet connection, but these are my priorities (I wish I was kidding) But whatever happened to passion? What happened to achieving dreams? Whatever happened to fighting what we believe in? I am insanely glad I have this platform to speak my mind up, to share my thoughts, get feedback from you guys and in some ways feel like I am part of greater than myself. Because there’s something massive in being able to share your thoughts to the world, even if sometimes you feel like they don’t listen, in fact they do. But it’s only the matter of whenever the world will decided to respond. That’s why I’ve decided to take a step back. Not from blogging or writing. From the industry. Last year I told myself that I will produce more and better content for you, and in one way I feel like that has happened, I do feel like my content quality has improved but that quantity, not really. This year I have blogged much less than I’ve wanted to. Mostly because the stress of working full time and being able to support myself has taken over me. But no more. I’ve decided to take a breather, step back a bit from industry, create more and get my life sorted out a little bit.
That’s why, dear college kids, don’t be so quick in wanting to grow up. I mean there’s a part of it that’s great but apart from that it’s just stressful. But enjoying in what you’re doing is one of most important things in life in my opinion. Even if you’re day time job might a total nightmare, do something outside those hours that helps you get up in the morning. I can say with hand on my heart that this past year if it weren’t for this blog, there have been days that I wouldn’t even get up in the morning, as there wouldn’t be a point to it. Even if it’s just taking images or planning outfits or doing a product shoot for Meade this is what I wake up for, this is what I live for. And even thou I’ve been told to maybe try something different, something in me just doesn’t want to give up, and I am here to tell you not to give up as well. Even if that mean’s waking up at 6am to take blog pictures (I’ve totally done that!) not for these images thou, just in general. And as much as I’ve just given you this whole “school” talk this outfit situation is definitely not for school, unless you’re going to an art college/uni because in there, they don’t give a single crap about how you dress! And my most recent dress situations, also look here , have been more on the “risky” side if I can call it that, but you know what? I don’t care, I’m a strong believer not only doing what you love but also wearing what you love, and I’ve always loved heels, lingerie worn over everyday clothes, and leather chokers. And I feel like this year, well past two years have been years when I’ve fully embraced that. The bralet that I got from H&M is literally just fabric but mixed with this backless dress it just adds such a unique and delicate touch to it where the choker I feel like gives it bit of an edge. And at the moment I love mixing settle pieces with more edgy fashion. But can I call this outfit settle?